Enough!!

"Am I pretty enough?"
That is the question asked multiple times by multiple girls across the world.
"Am I pretty enough?"
No. You are not enough. You are more than enough. You make not think so but you are. Everyone has their own definition of the word enough. My definition and yours maybe two totally different definitions but the universal definition is adequate want or need. So no you may not be your own enough but you are somebody else's. The question that is always asked between girls is that question or more.
"Am I enough?" "Am I pretty enough?" "Am I skinny enough?"
The question we should ask those people is "enough? Enough of what or for who?" Most people ask that question because they are trying to impress someone. When someone asks you when they are "enough." You should look them dead in the face and say no you are not enough, you are MORE than enough.
Enough is a word that is satisfactory by someones need or want. Those are different levels of need and want. In God's eyes everyone is beautiful. No need to be enough, because everyone is more than enough. No girl should use the term enough because that is a term that is hurtful in ways.
Enough is mediocre nobody should shoo for enough. People should shoot for more than enough. If you think of yourself as the girl who is "enough" change that because you are always ALWAYS more than enough.
Girls are so caught up in societies image and wants of society that they never see the bigger picture. The bigger picture is that they are beautiful. They are alive and breathing and living life that is more than enough. That is what someone should be happy for. That is more than enough and someone should be grateful for. When you ask yourself if you are "enough" look in the mirror. Look don't look at the flaws you have, because everyone can see flaws; especially their own. Look past that. Look at the things that make you, you. Find something, one thing, that makes you you. Look at it and say that one thing is more than enough and everything else that you hate or despise about yourself makes you MORE than enough.
I can look at myself and say "one eye is bigger than the other as well as one ear. One nostril is smaller." And so on and so forth. Put all those flaws and imperfections together and you get me. A girl who is afraid to say she is more than enough but IS. I am more than enough in God's eyes as well as the people who are around me and love me FOR ME.
No you are not enough because you are way WAY more than enough. You are one person in this world that is amazing and is way past being enough. Do not ever forget that the next time you want to ask someone if you are enough.
"I wish we could see ourselves with God's eyes. Flawed, but still worthy of loving." -Anne. N

Pep Rally

Yesterday on February 17, I was in our school pep rally with some other friends of mine. In our class there is two guards; red and gold. Gold is seniors, and red is newbies. I am in Gold, and our "theme" is Feeling Good by Micheal Bubble. 

In November a small group of girls tried out to perform in the pep rally to just do a rifle group. There has only been 2 times of being in the pep rally, in November and yesterday.

I was in the pep rally in November as well as yesterday. Yesterday and November were very different. In November it was a small time as well as my first time being in front of my whole school and performing. Yesterday though, when I performed the crowed was quiet and for a moment I absolutely loved to perform. I was okay with being in front of the whole student body, whether I did okay or not. I was okay because I had enough gut to perform at least instead of being the shy girl I usually am.

In a couple weeks, and months I will being going with my friends to competing against other guards. I can honestly say that I will be fine with it. I will face my fears in being in front of a crowd because I could do it in front of the whole school. 

People should feel confident no matter what. Nothing in life is so horrible we should always stress about. This morning I was incredibly stressed because I would perform in front of the whole school. After I was done I realized it wasn't that horrible. After you push through you realize the "horrible" things are infact the greatest memories of all.
I was happy to celebrate my last year, and last pep rally on the gym floor performing in front of people I have gone to school with for so long. These are the greatest gifts of all is to perform with these people I have became friends with over time, because we all love the same thing and strive to better at it.

"You don't have to be great to start, but you have to start to be great."-Zig Zager

Valentine's Day!

Valentine's Day is a day that is widely known. Everyone goes crazy to get their special someone something special and let them know they are loved. Lately I have seen some people question this day. The reason is because why do we need to get our loved ones something and spoil them one day out of the year? That's just silly if you love someone show them all the time. 

For the past 18 years of my life I have never had a "valentines". I have never had a boyfriend during Valentine's Day not really ever had a boyfriend because of school. Although I have never had a valentine I have had people that I love. I love my family more than anything as well as my friends. 

Looking back in the past do you honestly want to see pictures with the guy you were with for about a month-a year? I wouldn't. When I commit to a relationship I want to look back at our pictures and show my kids that real love will work out. That being said I don't want to spend a holiday that is considered a "love" holiday with someone I like at the moment. Instead I want to be with people who lift me up all the time and will be with me all the time. 

The point of a relationship is to find someone you are willing to spend the rest of your life with. Find someone who despite al your flaws you see, they see none. Find someone who will spoil you everyday and not just on the special holidays. Find someone who thinks you are their world as well as you think they are yours. A relationship use to not be just for show and that's exactly how it should go back to be. Relationships are to find someone who is willing to be your everything and more. Someone who is willing to be weird and crazy with you. Someone who is proud to be around you all day everyday. Someone who loves you and does everything in their being to prove it to you as well as make you happy. 

Valentine's Day is a holiday that is widely known, yes, but everyday should be a special holiday. You should not just spoil your partner just one day out of the year but everyday. To me Valentine's day is just a day. If you love someone then don't just go all out in one day but through out the year. Now like I said at the top. I have never had a valentine nor do I plan to have a valentine this year either. I really don't mind. Honestly like I said because of school. I am a senior this year and I don't mind not having a specific "Valentine" and I am not hurt by that either. I actually am getting my friends and family some gifts for valentines day as well as getting some things in return. What am I doing on Valentine's day? I am going to spend the afternoon with my best friend watching a sappy romantic movie, or perhaps an awesome action movie, and binge out in front of the TV.
So enough about the talk of Valentines day. Here are a few ideas to give to loved ones; friends, family, spouses, really anyone.
Here are a couple snacks that could be bought or you could make yourself.
The first one is Oreos' covered in white chocolate with some sprinkles on top.
The second is strawberries dipped in chocolate.
The third is strawberry cheese cake. A friend of mine did this last year for a christmas party and it is literally amazing! I believe she just made the cheese cake took out all the strawberry and then put the cheese cake inside the strawberry. It is delicious.
The third idea you could do is buy some candy and put them in a ziploc bag and print out a sheet of paper and staple it to the top with something cute.
The fourth thing you could give them is chocolate from any stores that come in the heart container.
These are some gifts you can give to them. I would personally love something that someone made rather than bought but everyone is different so here is a few ideas.
The first is to buy a bunch, or one big one, of picture frames and put as many pictures of you two together as you can.
The second is you could buy flowers and a card and put something sweet in it.
The third thing is you can buy a mason jar and cut a heart out, tape it to the mason jar and paint around it. Then you can put a fake candle that is battery powered and then you could see it through the heart, after you take it off.
The fourth thing you could do is buy a plain cup and get a sticker, that is big enough depending on the cup, of their name and put dots, in paint, around the letter.
Last but not least you can make them a collage, or a small book you made out of print paper, of the first time you met to the moment you both are at now.
I hoped these ideas helped for getting gifts and I hope that you express your love to the one you love every day and not just on Valentines day. I hope every one has an amazing Valentines day.
"Love is just love. It can never be the same."

Tattoos, What?

So as I have mentioned before that I am in color guard. Well we have certain rules for color guard and one big rule is to not get piercings' before the competition, any competition, because you can't take it out and you'll get in trouble. Another one is no tattoos we have to be a uniformed team and one girl sticking oddly out with a tattoo is not okay.
Can I be the guilty party and say that I do have a tattoo and I did get a piercing two years ago before competition. Now I am not the rebel person nor am I saying "do what the teacher says not to." Because that is not what I am saying, but I am saying if you want a tattoo or a piercing and legally by yourself you can then go for it!
Sunday, the day after my birthday, I was in Dallas. I told my aunt how I wanted a tattoo and my mom told her that she was going to take me so my aunt went with us. My aunt has a tattoo and got it last year, she said it hurt really bad and if that is what I want then I can have it but that it will hurt a lot. Well like the sucker I am not I decided "Okay." So we went to the parlor and I knew exactly what I wanted when I walked in. I had asked my grandmother to write I love you in korean, since she is korean, and she did. So I went to the artist and he did everything I asked and he was really nice about it. I have been scared to get a tattoo not just because there is a needle going into your skin and leaving a mark on your body forever, but because of color guard. But since my tattoo is the size of a band aid I decided to just get it anyways.
I got my cartilage pierced sophomore year, two years ago, and it did not hurt at all. A friend of mine I asked before I got mine said hers did not hurt so I thought okay not bad. When I went to get my cartilage done a girl before was crying and her ear was bleeding. "Was I really going to go through with that?" I asked. DUH! So I went up there and it was super fast and did not hurt at all. SO thinking that that didn't hurt, and hearing a cartilage was the worst pain for most people, I decided a tattoo wasn't going to be that bad. Well my pain tolerance I feel like is pretty high, but that's just me, so I did my research about tattoos to find that the pain is worse than what you think. Okay well I think it's like a needle going in me no big deal, when I was sewing I got a needle stuck in my finger, didn't hurt. I got this. Well the artist starts the machine and I freaked out! The first line he did actually didn't hurt but because it was in the inside of my arm by my armpit the nerves were hurting so bad.
When my aunt asked me the rate I thought of it as a 6, as her's was a 10!!, but after it was done it wasn't that bad that I think now I could rate it probably a 4-5. After getting use to the idea of something being on your skin forever and going through pain, like a needle, it isn't that bad.
I love hearing people have to go through surgery because of some bad incident in their lives and them thinking they probably were not going to make it and they did make it and have an amazing scar for it. Not like scars that when you were younger and you got ant or mosquito bites so you picked them. No I want actual life scars because it means you lived, and being the chicken I am, I am not going to jump off a high building or tree and cut myself to get one so I used a needle and ink to get me my "scar". A lot of people that over come depression have tattoos that tell their story. Some people don't like tattoos but like people that over came rough obstacles in their life the tattoo will tell my story just like the one I will be getting in may, hopefully. My scar is that I lived and that I was brave enough to get a tattoo and it is a part of me whether people like it or not I love it.
Yes tattoos hurt but they are so worth it. If you are thinking of getting a tattoo then don't hold back. GO FOR IT! Yes it hurts but it is worse in your head unless you read this and a million different other sites because then you think "Oh it won't hurt" like me. Other than that go get yourself a tattoo that has some significant meaning to you and show that bad boy off!
"My body is my journal and my tattoos are my story." -Johnny Depp